mind boggling classes!

I just never expected it will be this hard. Imagine you have to do all the differential and integral and whatnot again. I thought I was done with it but I was definitely wrong. Once you enrolled yourself as a graduate student, you have to dig in all those creamiest calculus you "sooo loved" back then. Not only that, you also need to equip yourself with some sort of programming knowledge in which I never thought I need it. I should have take C++ on the summer because I thought I could do without it. I am sooo exhausted.. I know my course is called engineering and hence all the math and forces and free body diagram and shear stresses and bla..bla..bla...

Today, in my 622 class (Risk Analysis a.k.a eats stats, drink stats and breathe stats), I was totally blacked out of what the hell he was telling me on the white board or even the slide on the wall. I was like, what is it? Why it have to be this hard? OMG, I am soooo dead! I remember he was telling me about the linear programming that I should at least know and he said at least I should know how to use Maple... I was like, huh Maple? I never know there's a program called Maple.. I know how to use Maple syrup though...hu..hu...hu....

I guess if given a choice of hydraulics and hydrology, I would rather turn back time and just focus on structures. In hydraulics, you just get yourself blended with all the terms and those Greek symbols which I never used in so many years, now has becomes my everyday writing. I don't even remember some of it, what does it call.. goshhhhh... I am that screwed huh? Oh, I learned something new today. I guess, I probably had mentioned it once in my lifetime before this.. the symbol of inverse triangle called "The Laplacian". Whatttttt????

I know, it does ring a bell to Laplace Calculus but haaaaa? Well yeah... I guess no wonder women in engineering in States is so far less than the men. It was so darn hard. I guess my undergrads was not that details. I don't know... maybe because this school is so hard so that they can get some top ten place on ranking for the best top schools in engineering. As for me, my heart wants to go back home and just do my works and don't ever bother the technical parts, but my brain and my self conscience telling me not to because I'm going to be a better worker with some knowledge in hands. I'm not a smart ass...

So, anyone who thinks you're ready to spread your wing and fly and try to get yourself an advanced degree, well, think again!

A stranger inside

I just feel like a stranger in my own office. I guess this is because I've been on and off in the office since last April. Now it's already July and in that 3 months period I really feel weird being in my office. Sometimes, it makes me feel that I should have leave earlier, I should be gone by this August. I clearly could not fit in here any longer. I feel like residing in US. I would never give up my citizenship though but sometimes being here is not so fun anymore. I don't like the politics in my office where small things (like getting yourself in a certain event where you're clearly not really doing anything at all but just for the sake of joining the trips) is really a big deal! I guess that was the result, the culture that has been nurtured over the years of getting yourself to be able to join every events especially when it involves hotels, highlands or beaches... With this kind of culture, I feel like giving away all I have in here and start all over again somewhere far far away. Ohh, perhaps one will talk about the patriotism and nationalism, I love my country and I love my people but perhaps it's not enough. I kind of feel like I am not coming back to KL. That's why I want to enjoy every moments in here as much as possible.

Hari Terakhir "e-filing"

I was so inspired by the "e-filing day" that I had this topic as my first posting in my blog. Hari ini adalah hari terakhir untuk semua pembayar cukai di Malaysia untuk menghantar borang "e-filing". Seperti biasa diamalkan oleh rata-rata rakyat Malaysia, hari ini adalah Hari Pulun Isi Borang Kebangsaan. Aku adalah di antara beribu-ribu yang lain yang baru sibuk untuk mengisi borang cukai BE 2006. Bukan setakat itu, hari ni jugak aku pun baru nak mintak no.pin. Luckily , my sister is working in LHDN so, all I did was to SMS her to get my pin number. Thank you Sarah!

I've been trying to fill the form for my husband weeks before tapi pasal slow sangat so aku pun malaslah. Tapi hari ni, nak tak nak kena buat jugak, maka aku pun dok mengadap la komputer ni dari pukul 12 tengah hari tadi sampai la ni dah nak dekat pukul 4 petang dok mengadap lagi. I did it both for my husband and I, sebab tu la lama nak mampoih. Berpuluh-puluh kali aku dok kena refresh dan log in balik pasai slowwwwwwww sangat. Orang kata punyalah slow sampai boleh pi masak megi, in fact memang aku boleh siap pi masak megi dan buat kopi dulu sementara dok melangut tengok monitor tu dok upload satu-satu. FYI, hari ni aku cuti tapi aku pi buat rheja ni kat ofis, boleh? he..he..he.., so megi tu paham2 je lah aku masak pakai ayaq hangat saja la.. tu pun rasa dia amat sedap sekali.

Back to the topic isi borang e-filing ni, yang aku tak puaih hati sangat sebab bila aku isi borang, sampai part yang status bujang/kahwin, bila aku click kahwin, dia pi reset balik info yang aku dah key-in previously pasai dia upload balik untuk maklumat pasangan. So, aku kena pi click-click balik mana info yang tiba-tiba dah lenyap itu. Sudahlah lambat, bertambah-tambah lagi la proses yang sedia lembab tu. Sungguh tidak menyenangkan hati pelanggan langsung! Dah la kena bayaq cukai, bil api pun tinggi pasai lama sangat. Bukan takat tu saja, kalau sapa yang ambik internet by hours tu mesti mengalami tekanan perasaan pasai nak isis satu borang saja mau dekat 2 jam lebih. Tak tau la kot orang lain laju saja. Sebab ni first time so banyak la tak kena.Apapun, aku harap LHDN will do some improvement on this matter.